Re: I am so sorry
By: Curt to Atari X on Tue Jan 19 2010 06:52 pm
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> AX>
> AX>So why not take responsibility for your life overhaul, instead of giving
> AX>responsibility to some unseen force that you only vaguely believe in?
> AX>
> AX>
>
> Excelent question. The main reason is that me taking responsibility for an
> overhaul only made things worse to the point where I was nearly killed more
> once. The overhaul slipped further and further away the harder I tried to re
> for it. I was utterly powerless to make consecutive good choices for any len
> of time.
>
> I began to practice the spiritual principles of recovery that were laid down
> the 12 steps of AA and have been adopted by many organizations and millions
> people since.
>
> Step 1 got really easy by the time I was willing to take it seriously:
>
> (The X in step 1 is whatever it is that has kicked your ass. It can be dope,
> women, food, tobacco or whatever)
>
> 1. We admitted we were powerless over X - that our lives had become
> unmanageable.
>
> Fortunately step 1 is the only one that needs working 100%. Step 2 was harde
> swallow:
>
> 2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to
> sanity.
>
> And I could bore you by going on and on. The point is that with all I've bee
> through it is now at the point where it is irrational *FOR ME* to proclaim t
> there is no God with any condfidence. I cannot claim that there IS a God wit
> much more confidence either. I'm stuck in the middle and frankly it's worrki
> for me.
>
> But I sure as hell am not going to turn my back on the faith that has borne
> itself out as the greatest positive *real* force in my life with *real* resu
> to back it up. That would be stupid on any planet.
All of that sounded reasonable enough until you brought the Cult of AA into it.
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